Hungry Kenny... Seeking More FOOD !!

You made me smile and cry at the same time

2011-10-05T08:55:00.001-07:00

Dear A,

I have never felt the commitment from you, so much till yesterday. That chunk of message... Me being insecure and you doing your best to prove that it can really work out. It was the first time my emotion was in a complete mess. Is this how a true relationship builds up on ? I'm really happy. Thanks for making me smile.

PS: Get well SOON !! BE SICK-FREE !!!

with lots of love,
Kenny ;)

Ich liebe dich

2011-09-13T06:37:00.000-07:00

liebe A,

Here I am writing to you again, after what Ich thought had ended and Ich was just beginning to move on... However, a few weeks ago, you popped back into my life right after my exams. Ich wonder if the timing was perfect as Ich would have been too distracted if you did appear during my exams.

What is it that Ich want out of this ? Ich keep questioning myself. Why bother ? Why go through such pain ? It will just never work out as much as Ich want it to. A LDR just will not work out and Ich don't feel the commitment from you. Is my expectation just too much ? Questions and questions, many doubts and insecurity that Ich have.....

Looking at all those couples who are doing a LDR makes me wonder, can Ich be like them ? Or is it nothing much than just a passing phrase in life ?

Ich mag dich, Ich mag Sie, Ich liebe dich.

Mit freundlichen Grüßen,
Kenny

The feeling of something new.....

2011-05-27T07:23:00.000-07:00

Dear A.

Meeting you was by pure coincidence. You were the one who started the conversation, and this surprised me. Why have you taken a liking towards me ? I'm neither good looking nor cute nor Handsome. However, I do count this as a blessing in disguise as you are really cute.

You were the first person that got my heart pounding hard, with each conversation I had with you. We chated online for hours and hours, and we have grown to like each other company, adding each other as facebook friends. Then, as quickly as it started, you brought my feelings to an all time low by not replying my messages at all. Many thought ran through my mind : "You have found another person" "You are no longer interested in me" "I'm just a passing phrase in life". The flame was extinguished and was relighted when you finally replied my message, stating you are busy with work. This caused me to have many doubts about it. Are you really busy with work or are you just avoiding me ? We continued talking a bit and you apologise for not messaging me often, stating that its a busy week for you and you will be free the coming week. Also, you asked me not to forget you. This melted my heart, and made me go awwwwww.

But in all truthfulness, i really do wish something could come out of this friendship. A relationship maybe ? So here I am awaiting your next conversation with me. I really do like you a lot...... But time will tell and I'm just going to leave it up to fate, praying that i would just have a little luck, a little chance with you.

Even though we may be miles apart and a long distance relationship is almost impossible. I do hope i get the chance to try it with you....

With regards,
Kenny

The final lap

2011-04-19T07:37:00.000-07:00

Its finally the last year of education for now, and I'm really excited that its all coming to an end. I promise myself that i would really give in my all and just chiong through this last year to achieve the grades I want. All these begins with my SAT exam, if you want it, you have to work hard for it !

Do i really seem tired...... ?

Lie to me....

2011-02-28T00:54:00.000-08:00

"Lie to me"
Shane Mack

Lie, while you're even early
Deny, that you're in any hurry
Cry, and tell me not to worry
'Cause what I don't know, is never gonna hurt me

Breathe, now baby don't feel guilty
Deceive me, then just walk away
Leave me, the truth will only kill me
It's gotta be, it's gotta be this way

One more bad excuse
Before you turn me lose
Give me something to remember you by
Couldn't you offer me
A little dishonesty
Promise me you'll try
You'll lie to me

Go, your plane is not gonna stay
Slow, so I can take it in
And so you say you'll see me later
When you know you won't see me again

Please before you let go of me
Take me one more time
Appease me, tell me that you love me
That you haven't gone and change your mind

One more bad excuse
Before you turn me lose
Give me something to remember you by
Couldn't you offer me
A little dishonesty
Promise me you'll try
You'll lie to me

Lie, while you're even early
Deny, that you're in any hurry
Cry, and tell me not to worry
'Cause what I don't know, is never gonna hurt me

One more bad excuse
Before you turn me lose
Give me something to remember you by
Couldn't you offer me
A little dishonesty
Promise me you'll try
You'll lie to me

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmania.com/lie_to_me_lyrics_shane_mack.html
All about Shane Mack: http://www.musictory.com/music/Shane+Mack

What do you do when your calculator died ?

2011-02-22T01:08:00.000-08:00

You blog ! Haha.

1 paper down, 3 more to go and thank god the calculator died today and not on my maths paper. All my papers need calculator and i can't do anything when I dun have that MIGHTY calculator !

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me!

Pondering about the above lyrics. Its true, no one is perfect. But we all strive to be one. However, your partners/spouse would say the above lyrics (due to love). But is it true ? Are we really perfect in their eyes ? Just something to think over. To my future spouse, Will I be perfect in your eyes.....

The longing is getting stronger, and i must learn to suppress it before it consumes my entire mind. Patience.... "This post is crap. lol"

1 minute

2011-02-16T06:52:00.000-08:00

1 quick blog post before i continue memorising all those weather for my GEMs exam.

Summary of my current life.....

Life as we know it is fragile. With just a flick of our finger, one life would be gone. It really hit me when someone died, put yourself in their shoe and you will experience their pain and sadness.... Guess we will just have to live life to the fullest so that we won't regret it. Even though we keep saying to live life to the fullest, are we really doing what we say ? Little do you know, every minute of your life you spend eating, studying, hanging out with friends, those are all little moments in life which you have lived to the fullest. So, quick complaining that life sucks (Directed to myself).

I realise I'm too serious or you could simply say I'm harsh when it comes to relationship. Saying no to even being friends when they are not Caucasians/whites... What the hell is wrong with me ? Oh well... Doubt anything will work out or come through.... Its just a place to play/waste time/get your hopes running high. It does get you adrenaline pumping when someone HOT talks to you. However, ultimately in my heart, I know nothing will come out of it. LDR just will not work out....

Exams ? Am I even motivated to study ? I'm seriously not on par with most of my classmates. I could even forget simple things, what is wrong with me ? Too much enjoyment in life that I take studies for granted. Or am i too contemplated at the rate I'm moving ? I really hate the feeling of panicking ! I'm just left with around 5 days till the 1st paper and I'm so not prepared for it. Why ? Why, do i keep procrastinating ! Anyway... no point in rambling on and on... Just gotta kick myself and keep pushing on... Good luck for everyone taking exams. I know for most of you guys, its the last stretch, so give it your all as you will be graduating soon ! We can do it !

ARRRRR !! I hate this blog post.. But i really do hope the same 2 wishes that i keep making during each Lao Yu Sheng would come true..... Hope... i guess...

Shucks !

2011-01-25T06:51:00.000-08:00

1 blog post before i continue fighting the devil "OOP" !

I just hit the big 2 in front ! I'm truly grateful for all the wonderful and superb friends that I'm blessed with. I would really like to thank them from the bottom of my heart for all these friendship that i have forged with them. I never knew i would have made such an impact in their lives as i thought I'm just a "transitioning" friend, with the exception of my secondary school friends as we really have been through a lot. I know i sound ungrateful, but I'm just really doubtful about myself.... However, i would like to thank my secondary school & Best best BEST friend for the durable Oakley Bag and also, my poly friends for the wonderful guitar ! It really touched me with these gift as i generally do not receive gifts for my birthday in early parts of my life. Thanks.

Now, time for the serious and main topic for this blog post.

Have you ever doubt yourself ? I know i have and its constantly happening... I feel like S**T everyday for the past few weeks, as i feel that I'm not doing my part in the project. This semester is just jam packed with project, 5 freaking ones ! We are currently tackling the CDIO project and i feel utter useless. It seems like my friend is one man-ing the project, while i would just provide some opinions and help at given time. Other than that, i feel like S**T by not helping and just pulling the group down. Why am i so dumb to not understand all these.... while they can just learn it easily. Have my brain reached saturation level ? To a point where by it can't absorb anything ? Or am i just plain dumb and lazy ? It hit me hard today when i heard my other friend complaining about his team mates. That he is one man-ing it while the rest are CMI or just not puting in the effort in helping. I am one of them that is not helping much and i do feel very guilty... I'm trying my best to read up and research but they would just move on at a faster rate.... And this truly makes me feel like S**T ! ARRRRRHHHH, i just hate myself currently... Is this gonna be the same way during FYP ?

Happiness is subjective

2011-01-24T07:48:00.001-08:00

I don't feel happy, i guess i never will.......

Things you did are slowly getting on my nerve

2011-01-23T05:41:00.000-08:00

You were once a great friend, but slowly and painfully, you are doing things that are getting on my nerve. This is just a start of everything, i really wonder how we are gonna complete our FYP if you do not put your trust in me. Its fine that I'm stupid and you are smart. But don't waste my time doing things when i already said i would complete it even when you have agreed, and then doing it behind my back, without even telling me. Is this not a matter of trust ? I feel under pressure you lose all your trust in anyone and just do it your own way. Fine... you can do it like that if you like, treating us all like dumb fools... I will just swallow this anger down. I'm dumb, i can't do anything, you are the smart one... I'll just just shut my mouth.

Burlesque

2011-01-21T06:24:00.001-08:00

Ladies and gentlemen.... Please watch Burlesque !! Its quite nice if you love perfectly choreographed dancing, and breath taking vocals. I think i have a soft spot for musical related movies ! Show me any, and i will truly enjoy it !

Anyway an added bonus for the movie has got to be, the freaking hot J ! I can't get over that person. Hot and cute at some parts !! LIKE GOSH !! HAHA !

Skins, seriously ?!?!

2011-01-18T07:33:00.001-08:00

Skins is a show that depicts the life of a teenager (Age 17 according to the show), how they deal with life, depression, sexuality, relationships and everything else that a growing teen would face. However, i feel that this show is utter CRAP ! What the hell is this show promoting ! Maybe its in the US context, the western context as it originally was a UK show. Asking people to loss the big V at the age of 17 ??!?! and treating every relationship like flings ? I might be too judgmental by just watching the 1st episode, but seriously ?!?! I makes me feel irritated after watching 20 minutes of it. I just feel disgusted by they depict teenagers life... My opinion might change after watching a few more episodes, but it sucks currently... How much can we expect when it was brought over by MTV ? Nothing but a worthless Cabal network.

Anyway on a side note, am i good enough for this.... Why do i always doubt myself ? Is it because of the environment where i have been brought out in ? I feel stupid all the time, and this just sucks. Nothing I'm doing now is truly enjoyable, it feels as if I'm doing all these just to get by life and to move on to the next stage. Diploma --> Army --> Uni. But is life really just about moving on, to not gain any knowledge valuable ? I feel no application in life on the modules I'm taught, unlike my counterparts in CASS or Design, where it can clearly by seen through their artwork or writings...... Does starting out in a new country changes all these ? I know for one, if I do get to study in lets say US or UK, I will finally be able to be true to myself. I'm bounded by all these boundaries, like expressing myself freely which i know i can't in Singapore. WOAH ! Lots of ranting and self doubts....

Will I be able to find someone who truly love me for who i am ? I'm not that good looking, neither do i have that awesome characteristic... I'm just a normal person hoping to find someone who is able to accept me for who i am, and hopefully be able to marry that person.. Is this too hard to ask for ? For now, i guess the answer is yes. Maybe 10 years down the road, i will look back at this post and laugh at myself with my other half... But till then... I will just have to strive on and work harder, pushing myself to go beyond my comfort zone and boundaries.....

They can never understand... or maybe they do ? I really don't know

2011-01-11T06:37:00.001-08:00

You do know that by saying those words, you are putting me down. To always look down on me that i would never enter local university, not even SIM. To always say that I'm not doing well, not even a word of encouragement when i got into the honor roll list.. This is just sad... Maybe you don't say it freely or am just joking that i suck.. But it still hurts to hear those words from your mouth.. You are my parent, to encourage me and not to always look down on me.. This just sucks... Really want to leave this country, away from all these crap and nonsense...

Its hurting

2011-01-05T06:13:00.000-08:00

Though you may see me being happy, irritating, just cheerful everyday.. It may just be part of my personality, however, part of me inside is hurting badly... blaming myself on how stupid I am. To not be able to see things like how others sees it. To not be able to gather information or think creatively/out of the box. Why do i have all these negative thoughts, why can't I just think positively... To just box up all those negative feelings. To keep them locked up, never to see daylight. But these feelings are leaking of the box and are hurting me deeply...

I just can't....

2011-01-02T07:53:00.000-08:00

No matter how hard i try.... I still can't forget/give up on you. Its stupid, I know. But humans are stupid being, that won't give up. So i won't... I just pray for the best in this year. May it work out...

This deserve a blog post

2010-12-29T06:51:00.000-08:00

I think i'm going crazy over you. Stalking your twitter and facebook, to the extend of wanting to add you. Cause you are so FREAKING CUTE !! LIKE DAMN CUTE !! Something is seriously wrong with my mind... I think its gotten to a stage of being an illness ! I should really stop thinking and dreaming about all these, but I can't. I know it will never work out as we dun know each other and are at both ends of the world, also you are just attached a few months ago (Did lots of stalking), 2 years older than me, and you won't find me attractive at all. But I'm going crazy over you. Maybe its just a spout of moment thing. That i will forget about it after a night sleep, but i just can't get over you currently... That eye.... AHHHHH !!!

My mind is seriously fucked up... Just endure. 4 years time, and hopefully what I had hope and dream of would come true. So endure KENNY !

Bad bad bad

2010-12-26T14:29:00.000-08:00

Ok. This is bad. I'm starting to develop feelings for you. Which is not that bad just that i know it's impossible unless you feel the same about me, but I know it will not happen. I guess thats life.....

Merry Christmas

2010-12-24T01:17:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas everyone ! Just came back from my kukup trip. Enjoyed it a lot and had lots of fun :)

This blog is DEAD !! HAHA !

Stress, Exam, Holiday

2010-12-01T21:56:00.000-08:00

I have not been blogging for like ages ago, and people are like nagging me. "Hints" to chatbox. I guess, life currently sucks due to the extreme pressure I'm facing now. Lab test tomorrow, and the full blow of exam starts next week. Really need a saviour, to save me from this stress as this pressure is truly killing me. I have never felt so pressured in my life before, not even in JC End year paper. Maybe its due to self inflicted pressure and the need to do well in exams, as all result count, but its far too much for me to handle. 1 paper every day and i still have many things to memorise ! Like gosh.... I'm seriously not prepared for this up coming exam and i have not even started revision of some subjects yet !! ARRRRR. Life sucks. I pray that Year 3 would be less stress than this.

On a side note, dip plus seems to be going on quite well though we are moving at a snail rate. I kind of like how we play with our blocking,tone, articulation and inputing emotions into the speeches. Though pronouncing most words seem to be difficult for me, to bring out the S and the T. Its driving me crazy, especially when the teacher wants us to hear it clearly !! But i will overcome it, as i know that the end product would be freaking good and everyone will be able to appreciate this piece of work :) The current plan is to hold it at the auditorium, and the place is freaking big ! Like WOAH !! Imagine filling up all the seats with people. There would be like 400+ people the least. I sense stage fright for me soon as i might just pee in my pants. But oh well, practice makes perfect and we would be putting up the best show of our life :)

Hopes and Dreams

2010-10-15T19:44:00.000-07:00

Something to look forward to, would be a holiday when i graduate which is in 2 years time. Guess i would have to save loads of money for this trip. As the current plan is to visit Orlando and Miami ! Theme parks and Beaches ! It does not get any better. And by the time i head there, i would be 21 years old which means I'm able to PARTY !! The legal drinking age in US is 21 unlike here which is 18. Oh well. Time to save up more money and start planning in details. Hopefully this trip/holiday would come true.

Holidays !

2010-09-22T23:18:00.000-07:00

The holidays are finally here. Its the end of sem 1 and the start of 4 weeks of holiday. Holidays are boring when suddenly all your work load is just gone. No more thinking about exam, the stress, the home works, the amount of effort to put in just to get good grades. With all these factors gone, life is mundane now. I'm just siting at home slacking, going out with friends or working. It is as if i'm wasting my life away, gosh ! At least i'm working rather then truly slacking my life away. But still, i have no sense of achievement during this break. I need to find a goal in life. Yes i do have a main goal in life, but i do need a short term goal so that i would feel rewarded at the end of the holiday.

Emotion in a turmoil

2010-09-11T04:53:00.000-07:00

My state of mind and emotion this week is in a turmoil due to the stress given by the exams. Just 3 more papers to go, and really feel like just raising the white flag or just cry my heart out. Its hurting deep, but i will preserve on as its just 1 more week and working seems to do the job of relieving my stress due to the fun environment.

Listening to true now by Ryan Cabrera. Its making me tear, as the lyrics contain so much meaning that one could easily relate to. If someone is to sing this song to me, i would immediately fall in love with the person. Haha. But on a side note, this might be a good song choice during a wedding and i would definitely cry my eyes out, or maybe during an anniversary. This song is just filled with loads of emotions.

JIA YOU KENNY ! I can do it !

Work, quizs, exams.

2010-09-01T20:06:00.000-07:00

This week had been fun but stressful at the same time and i'm sure the next 2 weeks would be equally bad or even worst. First on the list work. Work had been kind to me for the past 2 days as we had little guest. Thus overall it was quite slack/easy job for me but its going to be hell this Friday when i work. With all these crowd i wonder if i can survive. There are 5 positions in the job and currently i hate doing OCC, as there are just so many things to do in that room. But i would say work currently is enjoyable i hope it stays this way.

Side note : Guest do provide us with lots of entertainment with their silly actions and question. Haha.

Next up quiz. Done with AMMP quiz on monday, leaving me with CA quiz which i plan to complete by today as the closing date for it is on Friday (3rd Sept).

Finally exams. Exams are just round the corner and I'm so NOT prepared for it !! First paper is on 8 sept, which means i'm left with just 4/5 days to prepare for it !! Gosh, someone save me. I really hope i can get through this 2 weeks of exams due to all the commitments for work. But i will work hard and hopefully get through it as its all part of life and my ultimate plan to study in the States :)

Oh i remembered. Emily is finally back. Miss her lots and hope she gets the USS job and hopefully work in the same attraction as me :) Then we would have loads of fun together ! Haha.

Missing YOG

2010-08-27T09:15:00.000-07:00

I never thought i will say this, but i'm missing YOG BADLY. Through my work at SPH for YOG i have grown to love this event and my support for our country to win any possible medal available. YES, I'm saying this out LOUD ! I MISS YOG !! To the point where i might have cried when watching the closing ceremony as its the end of everything.

1) The never ending flow of chocolate related snacks or sweet snacks or the wonderful sandwiches.

2) The opportunity of meeting press and people from all parts of the world. Special mention to David, who share with us Knock knock jokes, making us laugh when work was super boring.His the friendly American, who does not intimidate us, motivating me to study hard and to follow my dreams. All the best David, I really hope that we would cross path again in the next few years when i get to study in United states.

3) The wonder staffs from SPH, who let us "slack" Haha and the countless conversation about life, with them sharing their life experience. I will always remember the day when we watch the football match, SIN VS Haiti where all the staff just stopped their work and cheer when the ball went in or held their breath and BOO-ED when we were given a yellow card. The atmosphere at the moment was what i treasured the most as i have never felt that engrossed, engaged and proud to be a supporter of Singapore.

4) Most importantly, the constant flow of HOT/CUTE Caucasians who are just pleasing to the eyes. I will miss seeing and working with an international team, especially the same cute person who would always be there in the morning till late at night, seating at the same spot. You are super CUTE !

I'm having POST YOG SYNDROME. Thanks for this wonderful experience and memory. I will truly miss this and it would be kept in my heart forever :) I feel so sad that its all over. OMG I FEEL LIKE CRYING :( Thanks thanks thanks thanks.

Side note : I really admire those working for the press, writing articles. You make me look up to you guys greatly as you are able to rush out articles in a click of a finger (like that). And the constant hard work you guys put in even when watching the closing ceremony as most press people had like laptops up, writing articles. You inspire me, making my mind to think about taking up a major in journalism. But i strongly know that i will fail badly in it, as i don't think i work well under constant pressure. But i'm really proud of you press people.

New motivation

2010-08-19T00:16:00.001-07:00

I have finally found the major I would like to do. Hopefully this is what I would really enjoy doing. I'm planning to major in hospitality management in Rosen college in UCF. Really hope that I'm able to get into there after my ns and community college :)

Training, USS :)

2010-08-11T04:53:00.001-07:00

Just finish my corporate induction training which lasted 2 days. Overall i would say that Resort world sentosa have a fun environment to work in. Even though day one was pretty boring, day two made up for it completely. Made lots of new friends who are all working in Universal studio Singapore. Going to have my USS training this friday. I'm so excited and nervous for it but i'm sure it will be lots of fun :)

Speaking of which, i won't be able to work for USS from the 15th till the 29th, damn. I'm like so not looking forward to work for YOG but instead work for USS. Could i please, pretty please change my mind and just work for USS ? But i guess its all too late and i would have to work for YOG. Hope that YOG job would not be that stressful so that i'm able to study abit while working.

Excited for this friday !!

This day is loved

2010-08-09T08:09:00.001-07:00

Packed Break

2010-08-03T04:56:00.001-07:00

Last week of school with all the lab test and gems exam before the YOG break. And, during this 3 weeks of YOG break, its going to be quite packed for me. Going to work on the 15 to 25 Aug for YOG. Training for Universal on 10,11 and 12. CTPP lessons on the 14 and 27, 28. With all these commitment, i would be left with as little as 3 full days to concentrate on my studies, which is not enough ! Hopefully I'm able to study after the YOG job as its just 8 hours and it will depend on my schedule, either a morning or afternoon shift. Speaking of which, hope I'm able to meet up with my emo buddy when she is down for web reporter duty to have lunch together :) Or maybe dinner. HAHA.

Small steps, but i'm trying my best, to make it become a reality. Watch me, at the end of 4 years. It will be a dream come true. I'm sure of it !

Working towards my goals :)

2010-07-22T07:03:00.001-07:00

I'm slowly working towards my goal, which is to earn enough money, enabling me to study in USA.

Currently i have gotten 2 jobs. The first job is during the YOG period which is from 15 to 25 Aug. I would be uploading photos to a website and they would pay me $50 per day as an allowance, which i consider quite good. The second job i've gotten, which i plan to work even after the holidays(during school days) is at Universal Studio Singapore. I had gotten the attraction position of the crew but have yet to been allocated to a certain ride. Hopefully i could get in the Mummies or Canopy flyer, which my friend is working in. I feel the pay is normal but the workload is going to be crazy and i would still have to juggle studies and work. Wonder how I'm going to survive. But I will make full use of these opportunities to learn, widen my prospective, and at the same time decreasing the amount needed for my College fund. Haha.

I saw the videos of Foxworthy family. It inspired and motivated me to continue believing in myself. It really made me reflect and think about what i want in the future and i really hope 10 years down the road, i could be like them, loving and having children by their side. I have never really thought of children as i feel that its still a long way to go, but they inspired me to have one or two which would definitely brighten up the House. For now, love is still on my mind and I'm very fond/attracted to white people which is why i want to study in America, as it is the place where dreams "might" come true. Hoping for the best in life :)

Job required !

2010-07-17T00:16:00.000-07:00

Anyone got any offers for job. I need one during my 3 weeks of YOG break and also during the 4 weeks of break after the exams :) Please sms me or e-mail me if there are jobs available. Thanks.

Decided !

2010-07-10T08:20:00.000-07:00

I'm glad that all things work out in the end, and i have decided on the path i would like to take. Also, i have a clear Aim/Goal in life now and am working hard towards it.

Thanks best friend for all those support you send through SMS or while talking on MSN. Really happy/glad to have a friend like you :)

Pressure ?

2010-07-08T19:51:00.000-07:00

I have never experience this before. Yesterday, I just suddenly feel like crying. The feeling was very strong. It felt as eve crying would solve any problem. But I doubt it will. Anyway I'm very grateful to have such good friends in life. Really treasure them alot.

Decisions, Choices, Confusion

2010-07-04T04:42:00.001-07:00

There few weeks has been stressful. In a sense that my brain is about to blow with all these research and choices. I have been researching on overseas education after my polytechnic life, and have narrowed it down to 2 countries. Namely, Germany and France. However, i still very much would like to study in USA. As that is truly where i would want to live at, in the future. It feels as if that i'm just settling down to Germany or France just because i can't study in USA.

Believe me. I did research on USA and its not cheap. In fact, cheap should not even be the word used here as prices to study there is practically day light robbery ! Where as studying in Germany or France would be cheaper as there is no tuition fee, or if there is, it is as low as 500 euro per semester, which i feel is reasonable and i should be able to afford it. However, the feeling of not being able to study and live in USA sucks. Emily did suggest that i study at HCC first for 1 & 1/2 years to get 60 credits before completing the final 60 credits in Uni. The problem arises when i have to pay for uni's tuition fee. Which is around 20K USD per year ! How in the world am i going to afford that ? She said i should work for 1 year to lessen the burden of the tuition fee. But would i be too old when i graduate ? Would i be able to get a job when i finish HCC. As its not as simple as wanting and getting it. There are lots of factors that you have to take into consideration. Life is complicated, and I have to make full use of it.

Thus, i have sort of decided that i would like to pursue a degree in Engineering in Germany. Got to start learning some German now ! But seriously, the thought of studying in USA so just so freaking tempting. Why can't money just fall from the sky or i could like strike the lottery, so i would not have to worry about it. Sigh....

Lets just hope that 5 years down the road, when I'm still updating this blog, i would see this post 5 years ago and say that i have achieved what i want in life. Which is to study in USA or Germany or France and to graduate and work there. Staying & enjoying every moment of my life there. Also, find someone I love and get married. It all seems like a dream now. But i can only pray and hope for this to happen.

Stress, Worried ?!?!

2010-05-28T21:51:00.000-07:00

I'm freaking out cause exams is just like 8 more days away ONLY !! And i am so unprepared for it...

Its still too early, snap out of it. The time will come. I truly believe in it. Maybe a few more years down the road, i would get to experience it. But for now, let me just carry on with life :)

Grey's Anatomy Season final episode

2010-05-22T08:45:00.000-07:00

One word SPEECHLESS.

It was too freaking good, made you tear !

Bought me to tears...

2010-05-12T07:59:00.000-07:00

This week epi of Glee was really touching, it almost brought me to tears and i had the tinging feeling, the feeling of sadness when i was watching. The actor playing the bed ridden guy is really paralyze in real life. It really hit me when i google the actor and found that he is paralyze in real life and not only in the show. It made me feel sad and empty in my heart.....

Its coming back....

2010-05-08T07:15:00.000-07:00

Oh no, the feeling is coming back... The feeling of wanting to find someone to love me. AHHHH SAVE ME !!! When will i find.........

Random note : Universal studio and staying at Hard rock hotel was truly a good break from school and studies. Really enjoyed myself :)

Life

2010-05-02T03:21:00.000-07:00

Have not updated cause there is really nothing much to about.

I have been spending too much money and restaurants, really have to cut down on eating at restaurants when I'm out with my friends. Anyway, I'm so looking forward to June cause that's when I able to finally enjoy my holiday. Going overseas during the whole of 2 weeks ! Can't wait for it, just 1 more month :)

Training. Sigh.... training... Its getting tougher and tougher, at times i feel like I'm letting the team down. But still, I try to give my best, to really train hard. Just that sometimes i really don't have the energy to push myself anymore. It has reach the point of shaggness (no such word), where u just want to stop paddling and jump out of the boat so u won't bring the team down. Race is coming up again, its a 200m reach at Raffles place there, I still feel that i'm not prepared for the race.

Anyway, might be going Universal this Tuesday with cousins. I still have not decided if its worth to go again. On a side note, was disappointed in Iron man 2. The plot was stupid and i don't feel its good at all :( The scenes at some parts are not linking at all, which is bad. Its not worth the money to watch it i guess.

I feel like....

2010-04-15T05:01:00.000-07:00

I'm becoming an Ass Hole.......

Universal studio singapore !

2010-04-04T06:52:00.000-07:00

I have to say Universal Studio Singapore was fun not because of the rides (ok maybe just for the Mummy Ride, which was FREAKING FUN), but due to the friends that i went with. This bunch of crazy, funny friends. Screaming at stupid moments, causing us to laugh on the coaster. Friends who scream together to make the ride more enjoyable but leads to more pain in the ear. Haha. Thanks everyone who went Universal studio, really enjoyed the company !! HEART You all !!!

Just some ranting

2010-03-27T02:44:00.001-07:00

I'm just going to do lots of ranting on this post. Maybe its cause of the holiday which caused me to have no aim in life or due to me not getting a job, this has caused me to really think and reflect on life. I keep dreaming about my future about how great it would be, but in actual fact, it may not be great at all, for all u know it may just suck to the core.

Anyway the feeling of loneliness is getting stronger and stronger. How i wish i could just look into my future to see if i'm with anyone ? or if this is the life i want ? Just some random thought. AHHH, this is just killing me, i need to have something to distract my mind ! But on second thought, it is through all these thinking that motivates you and strives you to find ? I don't know.

Maybe in a few years time......

I have no idea what i'm talking about.

Yes. Thank you !

2010-03-26T03:30:00.000-07:00

Hey guys i know i have not updated my blog since ages ago, but i doubt anyone reads it also. Haha.
Anyway, i just got back my results and i'm very happy and proud of it :). Got all As, and a perfect score of 4 ! Omg, was so shocked when i read the e-mail of my result and could not believe it at first. Just one of the happiest moment of my life ! Thanks to all the teacher for their hard work, and of course my good friends in the group for cheering me on, and no giving up.

Life has been boring as i did not bother to find a job, lazy me i know. And i have been watching too much drama or soap u could say. And it makes u want to fall in love, to find someone who would really love u with all their heart. It really warms my heart when i see this dramas with all their passionate scenes. Makes me want to find one soon, but i guess its hard. Anyway i hope in the few years to come, i will achieve my aim (which is to study overseas/live at there) and have someone fall in love with me. HAHA such dreams. But i truly believe that i will make it happen :)

Happy Chinese New Year !

2010-02-12T04:49:00.001-08:00

Happy Chinese New Year everyone, been kind of lazy to blog but also have been super duper busy with all the projects but it has all finally ended, and i'm just left with my exams. Wish me luck. Got to mug my ass off. Really hope i can get GPA of 4.0 and appear on the honor roll list. PLEASE LET IT COME TRUE !! :)

Thanks Thanks Thanks

2010-01-22T08:18:00.000-08:00

A BIG BIG BIG Thanks you to everyone who wished me Happy birthday on fb,msn or through sms. Thank you ! Love you guys.

Special thanks to 2 groups of people. Firstly, to my class who gave me such a nice cake, which ended up in a cake & water fight pissing leon off. But i guess we all enjoyed ourself, namely : Leon, Elijah and Zu da. HAHA.

Secondly, Special thanks to my secondary school friends for the crystal jade treat and the wonderful balloons. Thanks for letting me spend the day with you guys, this wonderful bunch of friends which i really treasure ! LOVE LOVE YOU guys lots.

Lastly, THANK YOU !! To Emily and darrick my best best best friend ! For planning the party and giving me cards and gifts even when you (Emily) is not in sg. I'm so touched that you still remember my birthday ! :) I really really really treasure and treat our friendship as the top priority. Really miss you emily, hope you could come back to singapore and hangout with us. And be lame & Funny. HAHA :) Words cannot express my gratitude and love for you guys ! :) :) :) :) :)

One less lonely girl

2010-01-08T03:57:00.000-08:00

CRAVING : Forlick (Have not ate there before.LOL)

Got back all of my result today, felt it was not bad. Took 3 papers. Got 2 distinction and 1 A. Hope this can be the same result for my final year paper, which is in 7 weeks time.

Been slacking around, lazy to do anything while projects are pilling up. Also, more and more people are dropping out of dip-plus, which makes me think is it worth to continue ? WAIT. WRONG MINDSET. I should just continue and finish it, just 2 more sem of Pure FUN ! Why should i quit ! Haha. Talking about projects, i have to memorize a 10 min script for my dip plus. God save me !! Its going to kill me lar, so many things to memorize, how am i going to survive !!

Excited for this coming sun training as next sun, there is no training :(

Tick Tok

2010-01-06T06:01:00.000-08:00

Freaked out yesterday when i saw my dad reading my blog. I'm like OMG !

SP open house starts tml, its time for me to get more free gift from school. Shirts HERE I COME :) Training so far had been fun, coach taught us the proper technique and i'm going to say its quite tiring. I always don't have enough energy to last the whole stretch when they start chionging, sigh.... But i will train hard and play hard !

Amazed !

2009-12-28T06:41:00.000-08:00

I found my P6 PHOTO on FB. AHHHH !!! Its like so interesting to see how you looked like when you were so young. Haha !

Fun Fun & More Fun

2009-12-26T21:06:00.000-08:00

Today was my first db training at kallang. Overall it was very fun but super tiring at the same time. When we paddle out i was able to look at scenery such as the singapore flyer, Marina Barrage etc with unrestricted view which was quite nice. Should have brought a camera out and took pictures but me being so noob in the team would get the camera wet and spoil it. Haha. Kind of enjoyed dbing as i feel that some parts of it are quite cool, like when moving off, coach would say paddle up or something like that, and everyone would get into the position, rising the paddle at 45 degree which is like damn cool, like a picture perfect moment. We went through many different bridges and before entering each bridge, coach would say power, 3 2 1 and we would like chiong ! Thats like the most fun part but at the same time, the most tiring part. If i lost the momentum, which i did a few time, its hard to join back in and each time i join back in, i would feel like i'm going to fly out of the boat. No joke, it really felt like that. Overall, it was fun and enjoyable, also the people there seem okok, not like those arrogant kind. Lets hope i would last long in this team. HAHA.

Merry Christmas !

2009-12-25T07:30:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas everyone. Watched Avatar earlier this morning at plazasing, and it was not bad as the graphics were astonishing however, the plot could be quite draggy resulting in the movie being 2 hours + long. Anyway, we had gift exchange and i got a water bottle from Leon. Thanks man. I think i need to buy another gift for Elijah or i would feel damn bad about it. Haha.

Have you guys been good boys/girls this year ? Or Santa would SPANK your butt !

Its alive !

2009-12-24T02:10:00.000-08:00

The blog is alive, taking its last breath before it dies again. Anyway thanks to Nette for helping me find this blogskin but i'm still trying to figure out how to change the Pink colour of the links to other colour cause it looks damn gay. Life is quite boring now, I'm just slacking my life away when i could have done something more meaningful.

I NEED TO GAIN WEIGHT !!! AHHHH

Free Singlet SOON !! Haha

2009-11-01T01:05:00.000-07:00

Theres really nth much in life to blog about except me wasting my life away by slacking. Haha. Anyway best friend leaving for USA again on the 5 of Nov, should be going down to the airport with nat i guess. So good, as he could enjoy life at there while i'm stuck in Sg for this whole year... sob sob. Guess i'll go overseas next year bah, need save money. Haha.

OH OH OH. I'm going to get a free singlet next year around this time. Hopefully. I made a bet with my friend that by next year this time we will be buffed up and wear a singlet. So who ever is not buff up enough will have to buy a singlet for the other person. And I hope i can get that free singlet, as i'm going to buy like the most expensive singlet and force him to spend lots of money. HAHA.

Anyway does anyone know where i can buy DOMO related items ? Helping a friend get. Thanks in advance :)

I'm always there for u GUYS :)

2009-10-25T06:01:00.000-07:00

Was just writing a journal about acting and now a short essay on the qn : If you could live your life all over again, what would you change ? This made me think and reflect on my life and i feel that i should not keep complaining about it but really just go with the flow and enjoy life, cause i have great friends and company :)

Anyway I know you guys are having your As soon and its really stressful but really just push yourself and go all the way. I'm sad that i could not walk the same path as you guys now, as i would really like to go through lectures and tutorial with this bunch of great funny friends. It just made me feel sad at times when i can't really walk with u guys... Anyway To 5PWC. Please chiong all the way, i know you guys sure would do well for As and get into the courses u want. I'm always there supporting u guys :) So don't give up and meet UP REALLLL SOON !!! MISS YOU GUYS !! :)

Have a little faith in me

2009-10-12T05:15:00.000-07:00

Michael Franti & Spearhead - Have A Little Faith

I know its hard when you're down
And the bad times seem to follow you around
And you got no reason to show
Don't let it go...oh no

And when it's 3 in the morn
And you've told your whole life story to a telephone
And the radio's the only thing to let you know
You're not alone...oh no

Just have a little faith in me
I have a little faith in you
So have a little faith in me
Don't let it go...oh no

And I wish I was there
Just to run my own fingers through your worries and cares
Even though I fumble and fall
Don't let it go...oh no

And when the rain falls down you know the flowers are gonna bloom
And when the hard times come you know the teacher's in the room
And when the sun comes up you know that I'll be there for you
Don't let it go...oh no

Just have a little faith in me
I have a little faith in you
So have a little faith in me
Don't let it go...oh no

Just have a little faith in me
I have a little faith in you
So have a little faith in me
Don't let it go
Don't let it go
Don't let it go
Don't let it go
Don't let it go
Don't let it go

Just be strong for you, I'll be strong for you
Just be strong for you, I'll be strong for you
Just be strong for you, I'll be strong for you
Just be strong for you, I'll be strong for you

Don't let it go
Don't let it go
Don't let it go
Don't let it go

A very meaningful song. Heard it at the ending of brothers and sisters epi that was showing this week. Made me feel sad and feel like crying....

Boring

2009-10-04T03:51:00.000-07:00

I guess life now is super boring. Been working for the past week and this is my last week at work. Like finally. Don't really like this work place as the department i'm in just sucks. I mean my boss is like some unfriendly bitch that don't seem grateful to anyone at all. LIKE WTH. Anyway at least i get to make friends with the rest of the temp and have lunch with them, or else i will be lunching along :(. Been wasting my life away during the holidays, playing playing and more playing. OH and i accepted the diploma plus for Theatre Performance and Production. Can u imagine me acting ?!?!?! LOL i'm going to so laught my ass off at myself, but i guess its going to be an interesting module for me. HAHA. Few more weeks to my driving test. Pray that all goes well. :) :) :) :) OH YEA, I still can't get tickets to Stats. ARRRRGGGG. Really dying to go there.... lol.

Decisions....

2009-09-23T07:03:00.000-07:00

Just got back my result today, but it only shows the sem long result and not the year long result. Sigh..... i want to know the rest. Anyway i think i did ok ? lol. Got invited to do diploma plus, which i'm considering. Hope all goes well for me. Anyway should i go US. Would it be a waste of money to go there ? I really don't know but i secretly want to go there and i really love everything there ! The atmosphere, the food, the clothes. HAHA. I'm still thinking.... Really want to escape from reality and enjoy my 3 weeks break there :) :) :)

Gross

2009-09-16T07:46:00.000-07:00

I just saw something on fb that judy was saying. Its about a person falling into the sea and . . .. . . .. which is just too gross and sick. The image of this head is still in my mind.OMG. Someone help me delete that image PLEASE. AHHHHHHHH.

UPDATED !!! FINALLY !!

2009-09-09T19:41:00.000-07:00

Haha, before nette sent fishes to attack my prawns, i better update. Hmm, theres really nothing much happening in my life right now, except its the holidays ! This means slack, slack and more slack. Just joking, I'm currently trying to find a job, but lady luck is not on my side, guess i will just keep trying. Anyway to 5PWC, JIA YOU for your prelims ! Don't give up, its just a few more months before more drinking and crapping ? Haha. Slacking my life away. Anyway FB seems kind of screwed at times and i'm addicted to old songs. HAHA. LATER ! :)

Holidays...

2009-06-08T20:48:00.000-07:00

Holiday has arrived , and i have yet to touch my books.....

So, i better start touching my books. :)

Shagged

2009-05-30T22:37:00.000-07:00

Back from adidas sundown marathon, it was fun but tiring at the same time. I realise that most of my secondary school teacher went for the run, i even meet my secondary school friend there. Anyway me and wx also met FISH's friend from AJ. HAHAHA so SMALL WORLD.

Too tired and shagged to type. Night

Welcome back !!

2009-05-26T21:18:00.000-07:00

I'm at school blogging now. Still got a few more hours to go before my cca starts. This week would be one of the few busy weeks, as i got like many things going on each day, stress. Just had a maths quiz just now, should have gotten full marks but i got 1 wrong and its because i did not trust myself. AHHH. Hate this feeling. On a happy note, i'm going to do adidas sunday marathon this sunday with wx and i guess we are meeting around 1++ for lunch at CHANGI AIRPORT. LOL, cause meeting place for the marathon is at changi beach, such a weird location, haha.

YEA YEA YEA, Emily is back in sg and i guess we are going to conquer SG food soon. Meet up soon, to be lame and everything else. hahah. Best friend coming back soon also but 13 june, thus i still have time to save money before spending it on Long Beach. HAHA.

Going out after school on friday to wild rocket (Not confirm), to do our project. This project is going to cost a bomb as we are like eating at there and prices there cost around $30+ per person, which is so expensive. But, i guess the food is going to be quite nice, i can only hope for the price that i'm paying.

Oh before i forget. We are like playing somesort of game in our project group, which is that if any one scolds any vaguer word, we would have to pay 10 cents, and currently there is like $6+ in the fund. AND !! i have no said 1 word. Thus, this is good to me as i'm able to earn extra income like that. HAHA

Tired and sleepy. Bye

Fated ?

2009-05-20T08:40:00.000-07:00

Sian, did not get into the second round of CYA. Guess its all fated, who noes. hahah. Still, a bit sad. :(

hmm ?

2009-05-18T17:24:00.000-07:00

Sian, cca have not start for me and i guess i'm back to CO again. But, i'm going for cello or gao ying sheng this time. School has been quite slack with a few test coming up, guess i will have to study soon. But i'm still slacking, which is bad, hahah.

Currently in school, waiting for lesson to start, that's why I'm blogging now. Too bored !! SIAN !!

Just plain lazy

2009-05-16T07:52:00.000-07:00

Kenny is just plain lazy to blog. These past few weeks have been spent in school slacking, studying, joking, being lame, board gaming and finally a lab test. I kind of screwed my lab test, quite sad, guess i will have to work harder to gain back my marks and not pull down my GPA. Damn poly is about GPA and everything counts, sad life.

I think our class is quite bonded as there are like certain themes every Friday, and last Friday's theme was school uniform. So as u can imagine, i wore PJ uni to SP and everyone else was wearing uniform and it was just so weird. People were starting at us, thinking we are crazy or what. But who cares, at least our class is bonded. But, i still feel that 08S03 is the class that I'm really bonded to, i did not feel the bond that strong in secondary school. The bond in poly is building but i don't think it would be as strong as S03. Don't know, maybe its my thought only. Kind of miss S03 especially 4PWC, we should meet up soon for DRINKS !! LOL.

Any way, had sakae sushi buffet yesterday with classmates. It was one of the time where we really enjoyed our self by forcing food down, being lame, joking around until a person could choke on water and spit it all out on gary. It was too damn funny. Also, have to thank wei feng for paying our GST, haha, thanks alot. Oh, i just remembered i wasted $124.50 on a tool set which i feel that its a waste of money, but who knows. I may not feel this way once we start using it, thus until then, i still feel its a waste of money.

On a happy note, i'm doing adidas sundown marathon as a volunteer with wx. Really looking forward to it, and maybe the crap talking with him ? hahah who knows. 30th May here i come. :)

Haven touched my books during this weekend, and its sunday tomorrow. I guess i better start doing some work as there are some qns which i'm still lost. Hmm, time to work harder.

WOW this is like the longest post that i have written.... Wonder if anyone would read till here. Hahah. :) Blog again soon.

P.S : I'm not an alcholic freak

Mixed feeling ?

2009-04-28T07:52:00.000-07:00

Hmm, having mixed feelings now. Kind of excited for their SYF but also kind of afraid of them. I seem to want to help them but in a way don't know how to. Maybe, i said maybe lol, i should have like continued helping them in SYF like what my conductor had suggested, then will i not feel so bad like I'm not helping them at all. Sight... feeling helpless. But still, JIA YOU JIA YOU !!! Just next wed... come on !! We can do it !!! :)

Sight...

2009-04-20T04:15:00.000-07:00

Official lessons started today, was quite lost during some lessons like programming. Guess i'm not the only lost person, haha. Anyway i realise that i had forgotten most of my maths... AHHH, time to revise and CHIONG !! Guess i'm planning to CHIONG and not make the same mistake in JC... Once bitten twice shy (Hope its correct) ??. lol

JIA YOU everyone for your matches / SYF !!

It has been decided.

2009-04-17T07:38:00.000-07:00

I, Kenny, would skip school / at least attend the first lessons (as its practical) on the 6th of May.

Before heading down to support PJCO !!!! Really JIA YOU, just a few more week of torture under AH TAN, and it will all be over. Really hoping that we would get a Silver :) !!! JIA YOU.

WOW !!!

2009-04-16T02:59:00.001-07:00

Flag day was alright, managed to collect $61.75, which was considered quite little as some collected as much as 140+...

I found out i have RICH, I REALLY MEAN SUPER RICH FRIENDS. RICH RICH RICH.... WAH.....

Just did intensive booking of driving lessons during June holidays. I'm aiming to pass my driving before my 3 weeks of June holiday ends, worst come to worst, i would go for driving everyday.

Strange ??

2009-04-15T09:35:00.000-07:00

Just back from Timbre, my first time drinking outside (other then wedding dinners). Went with my ex-colleagues, enjoyed myself by listening to the live band which rocks and the company. But still, i feel something is missing, that i would get from my group of friends, maybe when i'm with them i can be in mature and super lame ?? i don't noe.... Drank Mellon ball, which totally sucks as it tasted like cough syrup... just ewww. hahah. Its 12.40am now and i still blogging. I would have to wake up at 6.15am tml for Flag day, what a nice timing. That's all good night all.

Mixed feelings.

2009-04-11T00:58:00.000-07:00

Got my pw result on Thursday, got A. Was quite shocked at this at first as i thought i would never bad able to touch an A in A lvls. Our class did very well too, almost all got A. This made me think, should i have just retained ?? and get my other As ??? Hmmm, i guess what done, cannot be undone and its over.

Met up with drunk fish, doris and tton at causway point. Fish was the entertainer for the day by saying & acting strangly. hahah. Anway cheer up fish, its not the end of the world. There are still many As for you to grab !! Don't think too much about it anymore :)

Just saw my class, its not 03 but 04..... err nth to say. haha. Timetable seems quite slack. haha able to sleep late on most days and earliest day for school is 8.30.

Work finally ended, got a crumpler laptop bag from them, really THANKS. But i don't think it suits me, thus going back down to the shop and top up some $$ to get something that i really would use/like. hahah. I'm becoming poorer.

CHEER UP!! Next time go drinking call us. hahah

WOW

2009-04-04T21:27:00.000-07:00

just saw my timetable online. I think i'm in 1A 03.
03 class again... LOL, is it fate. hahah

Scary..

2009-04-04T01:55:00.000-07:00

Had my 2nd driving today, all i can say was that, it was quite fun and scary at the same time. I haven even turned the car at all and when i got in, the instructor was like "just go", and I'm like ok.... so we went around the circuit. Learn how to change gear today, but only change to 2nd gear, no chance for 3rd though. Overall it was quite a fun experience, although it can be quite stressful at times. lol. And all i can say was like WOW, the instructor was like so trusted in my driving skills that his leg was not even near the break, like ehh i only drive once in my entire life, doing forward and backwards ONLY and now u trust your life to me ? HAHA ? Anyway lucky i made it in one piece. hahah Managed to go faster then others !! Woot woot, cheers to Kenny !! HAHAH.

Went orchard after work yesterday to buy gifts for my colleagues. Spent like $52 only their presents and my own reward, macaroons. Tasted normal though, but the chocolates at Canelé Pâtisserie Chocolaterie cost a BOMB, a box of 4 cost $11.20 and when the waiter said it does not include 7% GST i was like..... WTF... lol. Bought 3 boxes in the end to give to the 3 closest colleagues (friends now, haha). They were saying that my farewell gift got approved, which is a crumpler laptop sleeve that cost $85, when i heard that i was like wow, boss so generous to approve ? Really hope i would get that sleeve.

Anyway, lets meet up for movie/crapping session soon !!

Timbre, Whose up for it.

2009-04-01T09:34:00.000-07:00

Had a great slack day at work and a great fun day after work. Tired to blog now, but chilling and hearing the music from timbre just simply rocks !! We should go Timbre one day. Who wants to go with me ? :)

Just pissed...

2009-03-30T04:30:00.000-07:00

Today work just sucks cause of someone. She the bossy person who like to be in charged of every freaking thing. Like WTH.... she goes around giving people work while we notice that she just slack around / kept walking up and down, like WTF. Me and the other temp was both super pissed like who is she to like have power over us when she is just a temp, and she entered later then us. SO fk off bitch, like wth, so what if she had a sis who is working there, like i fking care. Its just too much today, that's why when boss ask me work longer i said a while and left at 7pm. I will hell not take her freaking attitude. Just super pissed at her, what even worst was that she works 'diligently' only after office hours, like to show people shes hard working, like wtf. Damn this kind of bitch.... just super freaking pissed today. That's all. FK off bitch.

On a side note, driving yesterday was quite fun. LOL, many jokes in the car between me and the instructor. haha, its quite funny.

HINT HINT !!! LOL

2009-03-28T07:50:00.000-07:00

Hey guys, went back to work today even though it was a sat. Worked from 1pm till 7.30pm++, also brought me laptop there to try if the net can work. It works but only their website which sucks. SIAN boss ask me monday can work OT. I'm like ERRRRR.... LOL still thinking about it bah. We went bugis after that to have dinner at Swensens. Service was not that good, but at least they participated in the Earth Day by switching off all the lights, which was quite cool. Whats surprising was that even my office participated !!! Miracle !! thats why we left so early at 7.30 as they started chasing us out. LOL.

Woot Woot, tomorrow would be my first driving practical, hope i don't ram into random things or keep stalling the car. HAHAHA.

Side note : CHINA, u all wanted to call me but in the end never call, what is THIS !!! aiyo... so disappointed.. as sad as tton is. Hahah. MEET UP SOON BEFORE u go on a suicide mission.....

Drained....

2009-03-18T03:45:00.000-07:00

Today, dreadful. There was so many invoice stacking like mountain and its really mentally exhausting to complete all these invoices !! Was like organizing A Campfire activity in the office to BURN all of them, on msn nick, and i got a few supporters. HAHA. Soooo tired right now, just want to shut off my brain and rot. Hope the next few days would be better, or not i will really just be brain dead.

I WANT STUDY & LIVE IN US !!! Pray that i can save enough money to accomplish that. haha.

There were times, when i want to just say it out, for example today but i was afraid. Afraid that this would ruin everything. Really, complete ruin everything, or even make me at a lost.... Maybe at the later time ? i pray and hope that the outcome would be good.

My life would suck without you

2009-03-15T05:11:00.000-07:00

Bought a Macbook last friday and i still need to go back down to school to configurate it. This means wasting a half day pay, just to waste my time at school. But at the same time i'm quite bored of everything and hope school would be fun.

A whole new school, a whole new environment. I really have to stop my bad habits and just study and score the results i wanted. Year 1 aims, GPA 3.7 & above, Take up Diploma Plus. Must really wake up and study, cannot afford any more mistakes.

These few days had been boring, nothing to really look forward to and i'm currently addicted to songs like : My life would suck without you, Man in the mirror. Hope life would be better soon.

All the best !!

2009-03-12T04:50:00.000-07:00

Hey to everyone taking CT this friday and next week, ALL THE BEST !!!
Especially 4PWC, 08S03, NRB !!! JIA YOU, you all can do it.

Poly admission tml, going to spend 1K + on a notebook. Me so poor already, who want donate to Kenny's Needy fund ??

One word - made in china fish :)

2009-03-06T07:13:00.000-08:00

Hey guys, this week was a damn good week as i got to meet up with lots of friends, from secondary to JC friends.

Went vivo city on Wednesday, we practically wasted like the whole day at there waiting, waiting, waiting for those who have school. The day went like this, pool, BK, talk talk talk, Carols Junior, talk talk talk till they finally made it and we watched slumdog millionaire. This movie was damn good, it was like a book that came alive. Story like was as interesting as 'The kite runner' book. After the movie we went for dinner at this Crystal jade. That freaking crystal jade was a super high class one, and guess what we had to do to save money, we ordered the cheapest items on the menu with fried rice and plain rice. But the cheapest dish cost like $16++. so in the end a total of 7 people went with a price of 108 i think. Paid 20++ as me and nat ordered more food.

Today, got back my A lvl chinese result, i got B. hahaha. I thought i would get like C. But a B, hahaha. A miracle. Anyway congrats to CHINA, DORIS, DS, for their A, not forgetting Wx, Tton for their B. PW result is going to be out soon. JIA YOU, i'm really excited about this result.

Met Lynette. doris and tton at school before deciding where to head to for dinner, in the end, we ended up at Subway in BBP. Was fun, interesting, funny, nice to talk to them as lynette kept asking strange questions. If u guys are interested u can always ask her yourself. HAHA.

Lynette : Just talk to him, voice your opinion out so that he knows how you feel. It may solve this problem and it won't always be that awkward for you guys. If you don't feel like doing that u can always ask friend for help, those trust able one of course, I'm sure they will give u the right advise. Friendship are made through effort and time, it will not be broken that easily. :)

Cheers

2009-02-18T03:23:00.001-08:00

Passed my basic theory test, time to move on to learning how to drive the car. Bad news is the earliest to learn is during march.....

Work, hmm what kind i say. Its sometimes stressful as i'm doing payment and if i key in the amount wrongly, we would be billing the wrong amount, thus getting scolding. But currently the work load is still quite ok, managed to slack here and there. HAHAHA.

Best friend coming back soon in march for a week, going to meet up with him, and most importantly GIVE HIM COURAGE. HAHAHA !! LOL (If u are reading this, which i doubt u will be able to find) Oh yea was talking to him on msn, and i was like planning to go overseas with him when he comes back again during june to aussie !! Really hope this would occure and i can enjoy aussie winter. HAHAH. Anyway we are still deciding which county to go and wheather my $$ can bring me that far. :)

Thats all guys, before i forgotten HAPPY BIRTHDAY DORIS tml !!!!!!!!!!!! LOL

let fate decide

2009-02-07T03:54:00.000-08:00

Hmmm, work is getting interesting but there is like only 2 temp staff including me. Thus, it is hard to find people to eat with and most of the staff there all buy back. Anyway i aim to try out all the food at amoy and maxwell food centre before i'm gone. sian still got 2 more months. lol.

Went to make my specs today, the old one lasted me for 3 years. The guy even presented me my first specs which i sent to them for repair, and have not collected it. HAHA. Everything is so strange to me now, feeling quite dizzy.

I want to go overseas !! LOL...

1 word

2009-02-05T06:19:00.001-08:00

First day at job and only 1 word to describe it.. SIAN... LOL.

Chalet

2009-01-31T08:48:00.000-08:00

Went to east coast park for chalet today, but i left at around 10.30...
Sorry qm for leaving you there, really very very sorry...

DIE...

2009-01-29T15:18:00.000-08:00

I got into SP aerospace electronics, which was my 6th choice. Was hoping to get into business courses or worst come to worst chemical engineering. But now... my life is screwed.....

Hope.. i can only....

2009-01-28T23:09:00.000-08:00

Really scared and afraid....
Afraid that i would not get the course i want....

Was talking to my mum during CNY, and she said that after my poly if i am unable to study in Singapore uni, she would send to overseas. My first immediate thought was to go US and study. If i were to study there, after completing my degree, i would work there and aim to get a green card at there. I really wish my future would be working at there and not in SG, as i love the environment there. Anyway all these are not confirm, as she will soon change her mind again. HAHA. I can only hope... and pray... that all goes well tomorrow.

A post after so long.

2009-01-23T00:37:00.000-08:00

Sorry guys for not updating, i'm just plain lazy. haha.
Anyway, went to comfort driving centre to register for my driving, thus my basic theory test date is on 18 feb at 5.40pm which is such an odd timing due the rest being unavailable. Guess i will have to start studying soon....

WOAH !!

2009-01-04T10:00:00.000-08:00

Sorry guys was lazy to update. LOL. Anyway, just came back from New York yesterday. I Went to watch a broadway called Equus and i saw Daniel Radcliffe LIVE !!. HAHA so i saw harry potter !! YEA YEA !! First time seeing a star !!

CUTE !!

2008-12-19T05:28:00.000-08:00

OMG... she is so cute !!!!

WOW

2008-12-16T04:26:00.001-08:00

Hey guys, i did something amazing yesterday, lol. I changed a..... tire ! HAHA. Now i noe how to change a tire even before learning how to drive. LOL. For dinner i had lido pizza. It was an ok pizza except the crust was super good. The best crust i had eaten. These few days had been quite relaxing for me, just slacking around, watching movies, TVs, and planning for the Disneyland. Hope we can get all the character signatures. LOL. Anyway, i have been missing lots of xiao nang ri TV shows, LOL. And people are uploading it slowly... So i pray i won't miss out much. HAHA.

Its actually the moon. The moon was dam big when u looked in real life, seriously, no joke, except when i took this picture it looks so small. Also, during winter time, i was able to see 2 planet, Jupiter and Venus.

Picture of my plane.. which sucks.. lol. SQ still the best :)

That's all, bye bye !

I LOVE FAT RAINDEER !!

2008-12-14T06:08:00.001-08:00

Hey guys just 1 picture for today. HAHA.

I LOVE FAT RAIN DEER !!

Reached... safely... lol

2008-12-12T04:34:00.000-08:00

Hey guys i have reached safely without getting kidnapped. LOL. Was like in a dazed when i reached as it was too tiring and the plane ride just sucks.. really sucks.. SQ still beat it hands down.. sight.. lol.

Anyway we were driving to my friend's house and was caught in the jam. At the same time the radio was on and it was saying

'blah blah road to blah blah road is jam and all i can see on the screen is just a sea of red (due to the car back light) . So if u are traveling down this road, you are screwed !'

LOL. When we heard the last sentence, we all laugh ! But can u imagine a DJ saying like that.. LOL dam funny. HAHA. That's all bah, bye bye.

WOOT WOOT !! EXCITED !!

2008-12-09T05:36:00.000-08:00

HEY GUYS, I'm super excited now !!! Don't think that I'm able to sleep tonight !! Will update when i reach there, which is on Thursday/Friday !!! Will miss you ALL !!! I'm going to watch twilight earlier then u all. MUHAHAHA !! BYE !!

Hope i don't get kidnapped at Doha. LOL

SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP

2008-12-07T05:17:00.000-08:00

TIRED, just came back from the standard chartered CIP. It was very fun with all those bananas. LOL. Anyway blog about it tml, need to enjoy my sleep and to make up for the lack of sleep yesterday.

Thanks Doris & Lynette for the gifts ! Will get you something from U.S (if i remember) HAHA.

Tiring

2008-12-05T18:16:00.001-08:00

Hey guys, yesterday went to orchard to get Christmas presents with my family. It was a very very very tiring experiencing as we were walking like everywhere. First we went great world of lunch then took the shuttle bus to Orchard. Then we walked to Taka, to MRT, to Centre point, to Plaza sing. This is the first time i walked so so so so far. LOL.

Got the Christmas presents in 'The Better Toy Store', which was like some musical thing and Kino don't have the mangas i needed to buy as presents... sorry. Anyway we went to Plazasing to rest and decided to buy a frame for my puzzle at puzzle world. But when we reached there, we saw that the frame was dam expensive that we decided to give up. Instead, we saw another 1000 piece puzzle that was SUPER SUPER DUPER DUPER NICE. But it cost $60+ My bro almost wanted to buy but my mum was saying like your house not bungalow where you want to hang it ?? LOL. Anyway my bro still thinking about it, hopes he buys it. HAHA

At night i went to get my retainers and we headed to IKEA for dinner. Don't really like the salmon should have just stick with meatballs.

Quite excited for tml event (Standard Chartered). I'm going to meet the gang for dinner at 8pm at Jurong East then we slack till 1am where the bus comes. GUYS, remember to read the attachment in the last est e-mail sent to you to know the details of the event. Thanks a lot and see you all soon.

Sidenote: HATE THE RETAINERS. MADE ME CANNOT SLEEP !! Had to remove it last night so that i could sleep....

Take that !

2008-12-03T20:53:00.001-08:00

Happy belated birthday Wei Xin ! Hope u had a fun day with someone who just returned to sg :) HAHA

Was listening to take that, the circus album. Greatest day is a nice song that i would recommend to all of you ! Anyway going to remove something later :) YEA YEA !!
Next week !! NEXT WEEK !! WOOT can't wait for the day to come. The anticipation is building up now... I'll just have to endure 1 more week and this would pass by soon with all the events coming up.

Those who have chosen Jurong East MRT for the pick up, do you guys want to have dinner at IMM or somewhere then we rot/night dream till 1am ?? sms me bah. thanks :)

Friday - buffet with family & buying Christmas presents :)
Saturday - Maybe Ben & jerry Chunk Feast with 4E6 then dinner at night at JE
Sunday - Standard Chartered CIP !! Free Adidas t-shirt
Monday - SLEEP, tired from the CIP
Tuesday - Packing !!
Wednesday - ROT/ Do something till night then LEAVE for AIRPORT !! WOOT !!

YEA YEA !!!

2008-11-30T05:47:00.001-08:00

YEA YEA, i'm super happy cause i finished fixing my puzzle. a miracle has happened. LOL. Anyway went to the library today but could not find any books i want to borrow, all on loan/in transit... sian.. nth to read. Britney spears new song womanizer is quite a catchy, quite good song except that all her live performance she LIP SING... like wth... this proves to show she just sucks. opps sorry to all Britney spears fans, but the above is just my opinion. SUPORT COOK instead, you would not be disappointed. HAHA

Was talking to my best friend sis, and we are planning what theme parks we want to go as the tickets for 1 park cost $70+... its like so expensive. So currently we are trying to look for discounts in ebay, websites or cards with discounts. We have narrowed down to Disney's Magic kingdom and Universal studio. Can't wait for the day to come !!! 10 more days to go. YEA YEA !!

Boring days...

2008-11-28T06:38:00.000-08:00

nth much happened so really nth to blog about just that i finished reading the kite runner a few days ago. Its quite a nice book about jealousy and friendship will recommend to u all, and still twilight books are still on loan, thus i can't borrow. Any kind soul willing to lent me ? Anyway i started fixing a puzzle that i bought last year, its a Disney 1000 pieces puzzle which i think i will not complete. HAHA, hope to complete it before i leave ! sian.. still got 11 days till i can fly.. how i wish time would reach that day sooner... that's all bye bye.

ZZZZZZZZZ

2008-11-23T06:45:00.000-08:00

Ok, nth much happened these few days. Went to chinatown today to eat the famous yong tao hu, which we waited like 45 min for it to open and around 15 min to queue for it. While waiting for the store to open, we ate fried prawn noodle & wu xiang, and here i am to complain about the wu xiang. We paid $6.20 for that pathetic amount of wu xiang. like wth, the stupid sausage cost $1 when its not a complete sausage but like 1/3 of it. Must boycott that shop now. Like freaking expensive for that stupid wu xiang. Felt so cheated. Picture of the wu xiang and the sausage to come soon. haha. That's all, still got around 2 weeks ++ till i can experience freedom, its sooo longggg... why can't i fly now... hahaha. bye bye

Just talk back against my dad just now, even when i was in the wrong. I now feel quite bad about it... sorry dad...

Decisions...

2008-11-19T05:02:00.000-08:00

Went to school today to sign the withdrawal form which is so troublesome as u have to get the signatures of most teachers/staffs. Wanted to go home after that but stayed back for CO. Then i told the conductor that i leaving, and he said something very surprising.

He was saying that since no one playing this instrument, he asked if i would want to continue playing and join the practices and just "mix in with the rest" to help them out during SYF. Was quite surprised at this question, so now i am so confused as to help them out or just get over with it. I am still clueless about what to do, as i was thinking about working to earn enough to buy a laptop for poly... lost... Anyone can enlighten me ? LOL

A full picture of NRB with the instruments that we played. HAHA

Side note: Thanks LaoDa kope this picture from her.

SIck

2008-11-18T02:13:00.000-08:00

Yesterday went out with tton and aiden. We wanted to play pool at first but its was like $8.40 per table for 1 hour, which was sooo expansive. End up we played LAN. I have not played LAN for so long like sec 3 was the last time i played LAN, so as u noe, i was like the noob in all the games especially DOTA. Sorry aidan for making u loose in DOTA.

Down with a flu... hope it be gone soon.

Off to the library

2008-11-16T05:02:00.000-08:00

OK nothing much happened today... just that my mum ask me to go to the library. So me, being a 'good boy' followed/accompanied her to the library. Actually did not want to go there as the books i want are all on loan, eg Twilight (Heard its quite good). Anway i guess i will not read but watch the movie instead. LOL. In the end i borrowed the kite runner, which i guess i would give up after reading half way. HAHA.

Support David Cook ! His songs are quite nice, better then the other david. HAHA